My schizoaffective disorder was IATROGENIC. I just hope it will go away now
that I am off meds..
I've been off meds since November.. But still I do hear a voice once in a
while. The terrible bizarre delusions are mostly gone though. For me self talk
works better than any brain damaging neuroleptic.
Risperdal ® actually makes me quite psychotic. It makes me manic and makes me
hear voices. I told doktor death lenza that I was bothered by voices and he
said "lets get your moods stabilized before we worry about the voices" the
same thing that was causing my mood instability was causing the voices.. he knew
this.. but the thing that was causing both was the Risperdal ® prescribed to me
by Risperdal ® brand microwaves pop corn eater Gail K. Shuler M.D.
Now I can do things I could not do while I was on meds and had
A person dx with schizoaffective does not go backpacking / camping alone in bear
and cougar country 3 miles from the road. What if they heard a voice? What if
their meds knocked them out? What if they became manic out there? What if they
got psychotic and confused and had a freak out right there in the woods?
Once when I only had iatrogenic bipolar disorder (bipolar III) I was cautioned
against going car camping alone on my own rural vacation property. Nursey said
to me "what if you get manic while you are out there?"
I was manic when I was out there, but it was caused by my neurontin ® and
Risperdal ® cocktail. Geeze.. I can still see the initials I carved in my trees
on that trip. The scorched earth where I burned down my grandfathers (long dead
by then) smoke house. Ah well the bricks from the smoke house and the ring did
make a fine campfire pit.
Maybe I'll burn down the outhouse the next time I go out there. I'll have to
take a bunch of Risperdal ® to get myself in the mood first.
Now I need to make up for lost time.... three years lost to psychiatric
drugging. This does not count the two years I lost as a teenager. My forehead
pock marked with acne scars from my bout with lithium when I was 14. I did not
get to go to highschool thanks in part to drugchiatry..
I've been backpacking three times this year already. I just got back from some
hotsprings. I hope there was no lithium in those hotsprings to make me ill.
I did not see any bears or cougars.. I was kind of hoping to see a bear but not
a cougar since I had cougar bait with me.. (a five year old) Fortunately I
did not run into any psychiatrists out there either. I'm sure running into a
psychiatrist would have been far more dangerous than running into a rabid cougar.