My mom thinks I am very brave and not afraid of anything, but I just developed my first fear. There is a big noisy monster with a long two pronged tail that lives in my daddy's room. As soon as mommy wheeled it out today I started crying. When my mommy plugged it's tail into the wall and pushed the button on it's handle I screamed in fear. When mom saw how terrified I was she silenced the monster and wheeled it back to daddy's room. Mom said she will not wheel the monster out again while I am at home.

One of my internet friends from China was on the national news last night. His heart defects are much worse than mine, and he has gone untreated for 3 years. He just came to this country from China. Doctors in China can not help him, but the doctors in this country can.

I got to spend the weekend with my father this week. I had lot's of fun picking flowers. Mom is going to take me to a park soon so I can pick some more flowers. I came back with a new car and shoes and animal crackers. But my favorite pink sweater did not make it back. I will pick it up next weekend when I go visit my father again. My step dad really enjoyed the break from taking care of me last weekend. He says all he gets to do is work and watch me and he wants a life too.

I am starting to get over my milk allergies and can eat a small amount of cheese or pudding or ice cream now with out getting real sick. I love the bread pudding mommy bakes for me and I am learning how to eat it with a spoon.

I also go to go to the pacific ocean this month. I had a blast playing in and near the surf!

My maternal Great Aunt Irene is real sick, she just got diagnosed with colon cancer. She will have surgery next Monday. My paternal step Grandpa passed away from bladder cancer just two month ago. Now my maternal step Great Grandpa has Kidney cancer and he will have his kidney removed on this Friday. Also my maternal Great Grandma Lieseke is afraid she may have colon cancer and is having some tests on the 10th of April to find out. Mommy's best friend at work has breast cancer and has been having chemo therapy for a long time now. If that were not enough my name sake whom I never got to meet passed away just over a year ago. My name sake Mildred June Vedder passed away the day before I was due! She was my maternal Great Grandma. Mom misses her a lot and she has to drive by her cemetery 4 times a day when she is at work. It used to make her cry every time, but now she feels all warm and fuzzy when she drives by the cemetery because of all the good memories she has of her grandma.. My maternal grandpa started having heart problems of his own this year. Life can be so hard!